a love letter to remind her

Thank you for holding my hand at the end of the world

Everything as I knew it completely changed this season; I look around now and it’s an entirely different era than it was moments ago. And. I am ready for another shift.

I always want to evoke a sort of make me feel The Goddess’ Power when you look at me; I wish I could empower you in a similar way.

Thank you for setting us free.

Abiding by the rules of manifestation - I forgive you, I’m sorry, and I love you. Even if I do not know you.

I am ready for more. Please.

I Am A Better Woman Now

{  New business coming in

   Dream job

   New girlfriends

   I even got a cat 😻  }

I am not perfect. My Mustakes, so apparent. Be judged by employers, ex-lovers, friends and con-men alike…

Well then this is for you, Dear One.

Thank You, I am ready for more.

A Fersh Perspective

Some of this is written in reverie, some in over-explanation of My Why… but I remember one of the first nights I hung out at this place called, “Imbibe” sitting there eating biscuits and gravy and I turned, grabbed your arm and said “I know what it’s like to be suicidal.” I thought I wanted to die.

But what I really wanted was to stop living the way we been living.

Even though I will look back on that following year with nothing but gratitude and grace for every moment we made each other feel alive simply because we were around, I deeply and completely love, accept and forgive you.

We ARE So full of life

Covid brought out the worst in us and made so evident the work that needs to be done.

Politics divide.

I have acted reckless in the past and you’ve definitely seen me lookin’ desperate but I have grown up and I’d like to think I can keep growing on but…

I am angry

Earth is angry

I hope you have a place for your anger, Dear One, of course I wish you would check up on me but you saw me at my worst and it’s worth it to you to leave me alone.

I’m so sorry for the emotional sea of chaos that we drown ourselves in.

I won’t apologize for it again. But I am ready to be a friend, an acquaintance, whatever you want me to be,

Dear Grief,

Art unites us.

But good Grief, I am ready to be your lover - so that I may never be lonely again.

You are an important teacher in my life and I just didn’t expect to gain and then loose and then gain again my relationship to you the way I have…

The way we allways circle back around to each other…chaotic.

I don’t know why I’m writing this other than to get it out of my heart and mind, to be honest, Grief, you did me the biggest favor. And to cope in the best way possible, I choose to write you a love letter, to release you and forgive you

Dear Pain In My Neck, I realize what you’ve given me and I forgive you. I love you. I’m sorry for you, I want more of you, and I thank you.

Thank You.

I love you.

More, please.

I’ve always believed in the power of connection.

To unleash your inner courage takes an outside force to awaken The Beast Of Babylon within. Your strength and self-worth are found in The Work when you embrace who you truly are, unapologetically.

If I ever look back at my life and wonder where I “went wrong?” Was it the trusting,

the giving,

the taking,

the naiveté ?

the men in my life ??

the women ??!

Boudoir Photography came to me in a way that felt natural, primal - so I speak to this truth. But also in a way that feels raw, wrong, embarrassing…if it is about embracing who we really are then all of the wrong, and messy, and broken or “impure” parts are valid and deserve to be honored as well.

It doesn’t necessarily matter what you hide or reveal in your image - it only matters that you have the courage to say so.

I want to see the light in the story you tell yourself that you may not recognize. To actively help you re-cognize the work you need to do everyday to forgive yourself the story you’re telling and to step into your true power.

Accepting and revering that beautiful complexity IS the alchemical transformation, and the power of LAMINA Boudoir Photography.

With a luxury photoshoot experience (like the one you can request for zero deposit during the month of your birth at this private studio I know in Indianapolis…) you are not only celebrating your physical beauty at present -

you are celebrating resilience,

strength,

forgiveness,

and your own self-worth -

through the lens of compassion and with an auto-erotic self-love. When you see your body as art, in this way you are truly empowered.

What does it take for the stars to align?

Every situation is different.

Unless it’s your pattern.

Then you need to find the crux and get to the other side. I have had my fair share of not fairs. But I am here to tell ya the hits keep comin’ and the hits keep coming

Our Commitment

I am committed, re-committed, to being the triste majistis of my own damn life. The Holy Whore to my Mary Magdalene. The bees knees to my hot tomato. Giirrl, I am my own damn knight in shimmering armor, alriight!? Seeing women stand in their strength, courage, bravery and highest light every damn day truly makes my soul soar.

The state of governmental affairs tho…I am s’sore.

Did I mention I am a woman sitting with my anger?

Oh! Well I’ve found a channel for it, Baby, and especially since my ex is a psychopathic loser with no job and no real friendss and is a horrible musician I have no choice but to publish this love letter and live in my d’lu…manifestations making art everyday, choosing to see beauty in the faith that a better world void of violent sexists exists

Ok, sorry bro, I’m back baddies. If you vibe…let’s do this! 👏🏾👏🏾

* Your Friendly Reminder *

I want to remind you that my services as a healer and boudoir photographer are reserved for those who say, “Yes!” to dancing with the chaos and who understand the power they possess. Shameless Plug :: stay tuned for my next #indianapolisboudoirphotographer seo blog trick where I introduce you to some #hottakes about gaining your confi-dance back!

I am here to experience, share my story and hold space for yours. Here’s to more love, acceptance, and understanding - though there may never be any from some sectors of the world.

Thank you for bearing witness to Her Story.

The Light In Me Honors The Light In You

Your Fave Boudoir Photographer,

Jordan Connor Christie

Iconic portrait dripping with goddess juice made by artist and photographer, Jordan Connor Christie with LAMINA Boudoir - Indianapolis Fine Art Photography Studio.